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Per la lezione d'Italia [11 Mar 2007|08:57pm]
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Marzo 10

Mi amici e io sciamo a la casa di Aaron Fennell. Abbiamo a mangiare colazione a Hardee's. Guidiamo a Louisburg circa 11:40. Dopo due ori di lezioni, attrezziamo per salto con il paracadute. A 13:00 il primo gruppo lanciano col paracadute. A 14:00 lancio con David e Sachiv. A 15:00 Nate lancia con Vincent, Nicholas e Pierce. Nostri tutti soprawiviamo. 

Marzo 11

Vado a letto a 4:00 in la mattina dopo una sera con me amici Roman, Eric, e David. Scio a 12:00 e vado a la casa di Eric per la partida di UNC. UNC competa con NCSU per il campionato di ACC. UNC conquista NCSU 89-80 e vince un posizione di uno in il torneo di NCAA! Esco con me amici Collin, Roman, e Eric al cinema. Guardiamo "300."

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UNC Dance Marathon [29 Nov 2006|07:58pm]
Hey everyone. I'm not sure who reads this anymore, but I have to try because you, my LJ friends, I do not have your email addresses. SO here goes my pitch. 

I am dancing for UNC Dance Marathon this year. It is a year-long fund raiser for UNC Children's Hospital. Dancers stand/dance for 24 hours in a symbolic "stand" for the hospital. Each dancer has to raise at least $80 for the event. I'm aiming for $100. It's not hard at all, so please donate on my webpage http://www.firstgiving.com/andrewabernathy. UNC Children's Hospital accepts patients from all over the nation and does not turn anyone away. Unfortunately only 10% of its funds come from the state, so we need to help raise the rest of it. Please help. Do it for the kids. 

Thanks!

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[13 Sep 2006|02:03pm]
Ok so this marks the my first month in college. It feels like I've been living here for so much longer than that. I'm not sure if that's a good thing either. I'm having a blast, but at the same time still feel kinda weird about it. The few times I think about home are the times I really  miss it. So I try to limit those moments to once or twice a week. 

My roommate says I've been sleeping a lot and lately that's true. I've been taking naps that range from 2 to 5 hours most days. Luckily today was just a 2 hour nap so I won't miss my workout like yesterday. I've already gained the freshman fifteen, to the best of my knowledge. I'll try to weigh myself when I'm at the gym. If I have, I will have finally broken 150 lbs. I'm starting to get tired of the food already and have resorted to eating in my room (or not eating) more often. I went to breakfast for the first time today and it was kick ass. Might have to only go to breakfast from now on. I've been making an effort to start getting bigger by going to the gym a lot more than I ever have before, but I should probably find the time to go running as well, so I can thin out the bad stuff too. 

PE class (once it actually turns into PE class) will help with that. I'm taking swimming conditioning. Unfortunately the first five weeks is a lecture class. We should be done with that soon enough though. I have two papers to write now. One due Monday and I can't really start it until Friday because our TA hasn't given out our first papers yet. I would like to look over my first paper and see what I need to do before writing this second one. My other is a five pager about anything aeronautical. As far as I can tell. But I have to do it and that's the biggest roadblock. It's due on the 25th. Other than that classes have been rather easy. Nothing incredibly stimulating going on here, and with exception to aforementioned papers, just reading for homework. A lot of reading. College is pretty much reading. I can't wait for intramural soccer to start so I'll have something in the way of a schedule forming instead of freeroaming and sleeping.

The girl scene has been ok up here. I was hyped up about it because of the girl:guy ratio, but haven't been very impressed. A lot of the girls around here seem to be heavily accented and a lot of them are fat. I cannot stand anything that sounds redneck. I just prefer northerners I guess. Or Charlotteans. We tend not to have accents. Being single here is straight. I don't mind it. My roommate is not however and his long term girlfriend is over here a lot. I'm not sure what I think about her. She's rather clingy to him and that can be very annoying. She's the very girly type of clingy too...anyone who knows what I'm talking about should've just cringed. 

I'm hoping to return home in the next two weeks now. East's homecoming game is about then. I would like to come out and support them and to see and talk to our principal, Mark Nixon. I hope he's doing ok. 

Matt, Nate, Jack, and I have taken to a high volume of pranking in our hallway. Apparently leaving a brick under our RA's pillow was crossing his line. He's not a very sociable person and I'm trying to get him to loosen up and quit being so annoyingly uptight and by the book. He wrote up a formal notice to the community director when we stole the shower handles one morning. He doesn't know it was us, but just that he did makes him way too uptight. That means that, as of now, we can't unhinge the bathroom stalls. He seems to have a VERY big issue about the university furniture being used in pranks. Go figure. Nate and I also shot a roman candle out of the study room window. That was probably the stupidest thing we've done so far. We needed to test the range on those things. They're seven shot candles, but only have maybe a 30 foot range. Good enough for a Harry Potter Wand Duel. That sounds like a terrific idea. 

Well since I never update this anymore, I expect some feedback outta you guys. Sio and Kellwa especially since you two are the two I talk to the most on here. And anyone is allowed to give suggestions for pranks. We're just getting warmed up. We still don't know half the hall (it's a long hall) and we need to get all of them involved. Maybe prank another dorm. That'd be cool. 

Well, peace people.

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[12 Aug 2006|06:56pm]

Yuuuup, totally going to college on Tuesday. That's in three days. Yea..this feels awkward. Not sure what to feel. I guess I should go eat dinner with my family since I won't see them for a while.

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[11 Jul 2006|11:19am]
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will post the answers to the questions (and the questions themselves) on your LJ.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions. And thus the endless cycle of the meme goes on and on and on and on.....

pickleprincessinterviewed me, and this will be the second time I attempt to answer these questions. The first time I wrote forever and then my computer deleted it. That didn't help my pissy mood. But here goes another try.

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[01 Jul 2006|12:52am]
Alright, congratulations to those of you who got correct answers to the song list thing. You all get a cookie. Except for James who gets a spikey mace because he'd like that better. Here is the complete list, and since I'm not picky, Sio wins with four correct answers, though if I was, she'd probably tie Kelly with three.

1. Welcome Home ~ Coheed and Cambria
2. Breaking the Girl ~ Red Hot Chili Peppers
3. Bring the boys back home ~ Pink Floyd
4. Into the Dark ~ Juliana Theory
5. Steady as she goes ~ the Raconteurs
6. Do you believe me? ~ Juliana Theory
7. Who made who ~ AC/DC
8. Mother Nature’s Son ~ the Beatles
9. Staple it together ~ Jack Johnson
10. Shell of a man ~ Juliana Theory
11. Never Know ~ Jack Johnson
12. Nothing better ~ the Postal Service
13. Star Trekkin
14. Letterbomb ~ Greenday
15. Save the population ~ Red Hot Chili Peppers
16. Phantom of the Opera
17. The Dark of the Matinee ~ Franz Ferdinand
18. Sparks ~ Coldplay
19 The thing that should not be ~ Metallica
20. Pig ~ Dave Matthews Band
21. LA woman ~ the Doors
22. I feel fine ~ the Beatles
23. Brick ~ Ben Folds
24. My Heaven ~ Echovalve
25. Good old fashioned lover boy ~ Queen
26. New Born ~ Muse
27. Hands Down ~ Dashboard
28. Science ~ System of a Down
29. Crazy Little Thing Called Love ~ Queen
30. Warning ~ Incubus

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This is the end...my only friend...the end. [25 Jun 2006|08:17pm]
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line(s) from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song. (Leave out (but include dashes) the name of song if in the first few lines)
Step 3: Let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING.

Ok that took way too damn long to do. Have at peoples. Surprise me.

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[16 Jun 2006|07:53pm]

Aight folks, I'm heading out of the QC and to Ocean Isle Beach for the week. Traveling with me will be around 15 uber awesome people. I will try to remember some of it in case anyone wants a story. Oh yea, and I will try to be safe and not get arrested too. Last time we were down there, the cops liked us a lot...Wooooooo.

Man I have let loose these past few weeks. In so many ways. Hopefully pictures of this will be up much quicker than those of Spring Break.

GO HURRICANES! WIN THAT CUP!

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[28 May 2006|06:21pm]

It's not like I regularly use this site anyway, but I began using MySpace two weeks ago. Something like that. It's not worth the hoopla but it's alright. Anyways, if you want to keep in touch, here it is. 

http://www.myspace.com/passive_jihad

Introducing, the first edition of  "A Series of High Places: a photographic gallery of Where Andrew's Been." I don't know why, but as scared of free fall as I am, I love to climb and be up high. These are some pictures of famous, or not so famous heights.

*unfortunately, my scanner kept cutting off most of the sky in these pictures and that was the best part. However, they're still somewhat cool.*


Well I hope you've enjoyed this random showing. I still have to put in a picture or two from Ireland and then it will be updated. Until my next travel!

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[23 May 2006|02:52pm]
I feel that I am slipping back into depression. There is a hole in my chest that I cannot fill. Again. It is the same one as before.

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[16 May 2006|07:05pm]
Ok, so I finally get the pictures from David's family where they've all be horded the past month. So sorry this is late. Be warned, there are a lot of pictures here.



That pretty  much wraps up SB '06. In a nutshell. There were several omitted chapters such as The Bryan/Jordan Incident which were pretty funny/gravely serious, Eric's "arrest", and the pirate store...wait. I found the pirate pictures. Here are a few.

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[16 May 2006|12:17am]
So today had an awkward and somewhat disappointing moment to it. I can now add "had the girl you liked tell you she's dating another girl" to the List of Things You Don't Want To Hear, But Do Anyway. I feel kind of bummed, but in no way uneasy about it. For some reason it still feels like it doesn't count. Whatever. I'll pick back up and keep on movin' along. It seems to be what I do.

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Prom [14 May 2006|11:24am]
So as I write this, I'm loading pictures from my camera onto the computer so all of you lovely people can see some very beautiful people. East Meck's prom was awesome. I wish I could have seen more of it, but we arrived around 10-10:30. I can't remember. We got lost. I'll be honest. It was hard to find. Funny story: we were going down the road, with general directions and started to follow some spotlights in the sky. After 20 minutes we found them on top of a wings restaurant. How dumb. But we eventually got there and Nixon, Parker, and Williams loved my tux and gave me lots of dap for that. Those are the coolest principals ever. period.



Ok, so that day the Hurricanes could have swept the NJ Devils, something never done in playsoffs before, but they didn't and lost 5-1 because the Devils are feisty and don't want to lose. We'll get them at home next time 'Canes.



Most of these pictures are from Collin's pre-prom picture event and a few from the restaurant, Bravo, which was alright. Steak was way overseasoned and I was a bit disappointed by that. But the company made it all worth while and we got to draw on the table cloth with crayons.



The prom was amazing and I made the effort to dance with as many people as possible and my date said I was really flirty. I said I was really friendly (as I kissed another girl's hand) because I was just doing my best to make everyone feel wonderful that night. Hahaha. Yea. Jessie, my date was pretty cool. Never really talked to her much before, but spent a long time with her the previous night and things went really well. I was supposed to meet her dad but he couldn't make it last minute. Not sure if I was spared or denied a treat. I ran into a whole lot of friends there and that made me just..really happy. Can't explain it much better than that.



We arrived at David's after prom party late because we stopped by our houses to pick up clothes to change in to. Unfortunately we arrived after 70 people left, so the party was down to the usual suspects for David's, which is perfectly fine by me. I just wish I'd seen the massive amounts of people there beforehand. That would have been insane. Jessie and I spent the night along with Roman, Collin, Christine, Ashlyn, Disha, Lawrence, Lexi, Desi, Andy, Derek, and Kristin. Fun times. Fun times. Happy birthday's to Derek and Cindy who are now 18. Happy birthday (a week late) to David for turning 18. And Happy birthday to James's dad, even though I never knew him. RIP. 

Caution, 24 pictures.

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[08 May 2006|10:32pm]
Wow I have never seen a hockey game like that one before. Kelly might be on to something. That had so much energy and so much skill. Everyone played very well on both teams. Incredible. Great job 'Canes. 2-0. Keep it up.

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[08 May 2006|09:21pm]
This is a real quick update between periods right now. The Hurricanes are playing the Devils and it's tied 1-1 at the end of the second period. It's pretty interesting and it beats studying.

I'm going to Greensboro tomorrow for a DUAL match in tennis. We made team playoffs or something like that. It's pretty far away so I'll be home late tomorrow. And very tired for my AP Chem test and IB History test. What fun. Then Friday I'm leaving school early for Regionals. That should be fun.

I'm really exhausted. I should get some sleep.

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Regionals baby! [04 May 2006|08:57pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I'll start on Monday: Kale sucks. Break a leg you IB actors. I'll be there to see you and work for you both nights. Much love and support.

Tuesday: IB English exam, Paper 1. Commentary on prose or poetry. I took the prose because the poetry was about fish in an Egyptian tea party except not because poetry likes to be more than one thing at a time. I didn't feel the need to go into it further. I asked Hughes if it was a bad thing that I only took 40 minutes to finish and she seemed unhappy to hear about it. That is just too bad because I couldn't find anything else worthy of being written about. It is very hard to care about syntax and the precise implications of using this word over that word when it is sunny and warm outside and you have a free day at 9:30 in the morning. I...actually can't remember what I did that day.

Wednesday: IB Math Studies, Paper 1. 15 questions on it, and hour and a half, maybe less to do it? Pretty easy until the last two questions which were calculus. I've only been through pre-cal and that was two years ago. Only David is actually in Calculus. No one else has had any exposure to calc. Ever. So that sucked. I went home and took a nap. Then got up and played tennis at Butler for the Conference Tournament. Bart and I played doubles to represent East Mecklenburg and won our first round against some tough South Meck rivals. It was a nasty three setter, 5-7, 6-2, 6-3, but we pulled through and advanced to the second round. Our prize was to play one of the top two doubles team in the draw (one from MP, one from Providence). We got the Providence kids, and yes, the guy I cannot stand was across the net from me. Brendon O'Connor. At least he wasn't a big jerk-off that match, though he did hit everything he could at my face. Luckily most went out because he put so much behind it. Needless to say, we lost 1-6, 1-6 because it is Providence. They've been conference champs for years. What're ya gunna do? Anyway, today they played the other top seed for the title, Brenndon Molan and Alex Hawes from Myers Park. I don't know the outcome of that match.

Thursday: IB Math Studies, Paper 2. 5 questions with an hour and a half to finish. It took the last second to get an answer on the paper and I still left one part blank. Nasty nasty nasty. At least that's over and it wasn't a calculus exam. Went home and ate a sandwhich and a banana, then took a bunch of Gatorade over to Butler for another shot. Bart and I won in a looooong three set match against Butler's last team, 6-1, 6-7(5-8), 6-3. It took waaay too long to close that out. I played a good friend of mine, Michael Jenkinson. It's a shame he has to go to Butler. Hahaha, I know he'd rather be over here with us. But the significance of that is that Bart and I enter the Regional tournament through "the backdoor" as the Butler coach said in his speech before today's rounds began. I'll take it. I've never gone this far before, so I hope to enjoy it while it lasts. Regionals means there will be some sick-nasty kids there. Apart from the sick-nasty kids in our confrence. I was watching Chris Sheehan play some kid from Weddington (new powerhouse in the conference) and his second serve would have landed 8 or 9 feet high on the back fence if the kid hadn't actually managed to hit a two-handed backhand return on it (and he was short). That is the definition of sick-nasty.

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wicked cool [28 Apr 2006|04:31pm]
I haven't posted in so long that I can't even recount all of what I did. I went to Providence's prom last Saturday and that was pretty sweet. I really want to post some pictures, but I do not have a lot of them (such as my date. I don't have one of her). Here are a couple though:
Other than that, I have had an incredibly busy week. Just...school work in general. ESPECIALLY history and chemistry. Mainly chemistry. Hedrick has given me so much out of class work (in the form of AP practice tests) that I guess I should probably do some of them. They're difficult, not undoable, but require an amount of cognition that is normally unattainable towards the mid afternoon. I will be out of school for nine days in the next three weeks due to IB and AP testing. IB tests take two days and have at least two papers to complete. Fun stuff.

Tennis practice has worn me down a bit, and that brings us to the highlight of my week. Our match against South Meck last night. We are now 3-3 in the conference thanks to a close win last night. Curse Weddington. Conference was way tough enough without them. Top teams are Providence, Myers Park, Weddington, East Meck (us). Anyone else is irrelevant really. I hear that Sheehan and Braxton are playing doubles for Providence which means they'll take a serious run at State's. It also means I will die. I play doubles for East in the Conference Tournament. Anyway, last night was our last regular season match, and it was home. Drew dedicated the match to the team and to Aswin and I and told us to enjoy it. The match was long and grueling. I lost the first set 1-6 and I'm very sorry that Leigh Ann and Cameron got to see that. But I pulled back (after they left) 7-5 in the second and 6-4 in the third. My opponent made it clear he preferred a ground-based assault from the baseline so I pushed him the last two sets just to piss him off. It worked and I won. Drew and Prashanthe won as well, so we went into doubles tied 3-3. We needed two wins to take the match, and we desperately needed the match. I wanted it with an intensity that I have not played with in a long time. Drew and Tyler lost their doubles, so it was down to the last two teams to win it. It dragged out. Scott and Brett persevered and won 10-5. Down to Bart and me. We won 8, then 9, now it was my serve. 15-0, 30-0, 40-0, game on a long backhand. We won our match. East won its match. I can't describe the feeling. It was the best way to end a career, with the game winner after an incredibly tough come-from-behind to even make the win possible. I feel like I took the team on my shoulders for the most significant match this year, for me at least, and that feels great. I actually felt like the leader I've been trying to be all year.

Oh yea, and I got confirmed the morning after Prom.

Ok, now for a random picture that I found while looking for all of those.

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Quickly before work [15 Apr 2006|08:25am]
So last night was pretty amazing. Great company, many topics broached. Must re-engage them while more sober. It's been a long time since I've hung out with a couple of those kids and I settled a lot of old problems with them. Burried hatchets with Kirby and Nick. Talked to Collin about some college stuff, and I must do so again shortly. David is officialy The Man. And Cool As Hell. I wish Lauren could have been there because she'd have been waaay too much fun. We saw the incomplete slideshow of our Spring Break (and a few other) pictures and several of the videos we took. We've got to submit the Baywatch pictures/video to the senior slideshow. It'd be hilarious. Hopefully I'll post one when I get it of me called "the General." I decided that I wanted to write Sara a letter, but I won't until at least a week because of Prom coming up. She apparently still thinks things are "weird" between us, but I always believed that's what happened when one side ignored the other. I could be wrong though. Point is, I have to go to work now. Hurraaaay. Just what I need right now. No, really it is. I am so damn broke. I will talk to you all later. Peace!

Later: back from work now. I'd have to say that whatever that "death wish" that David whipped up last night made work today much more barable than usual. I messed up a few times and had to get two whole transactions voided, but hey, I didn't care and normally I do very much.

Ok, funny story. Sort of. I walk in to work at punch in. I get a message "cannot find badge." Ok, what this means is: "You are fired." So, I go up to the manager's desk and we talk for a bit and it turns out that Harris Teeter is a little slow on the uptake. I missed three straight weeks of work (not much bc I only work weekends) because of the Civil Rights trip and then SB '06. Company policy apparently is firing anyone who does that. Something like that. It's really weird and stupid. So today I didn't exist, but still worked bc I needed the money. Kathy had to call down to "Corporate" (some dungeon somewhere) and put me back in to the system.

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[14 Apr 2006|12:45am]
Today was pretty cool. Newspaper sucked like usual and English was less fun than normal, but Math was chill because we took a test that I didnt' study for, yet was the only one finished and will probably break the curve for everyone. It's been about a year since I've been threatened for doing that. It felt nice again. I skipped Film, and ironically enough, went to the Manor and saw "Thank you for smoking." That movie is amazing. Go see it. Buy it when it comes out. Makes you laugh, but uneasily because this happens everyday in our government and that should scare the crap out of you.

Tonight I went to James's house and sat around a fire with guitars and friends and had a blast. I'm very contented right now. Full moon out. We had hot, glowing embers and cool breeze and chill friends just talking and playing idley. It was tons of fun and just what I needed.

But it's late, I'm tired, and I want to play some tennis tomorrow with Bart. Hope the little bugger's up for it. Peace peoples.

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Fucked up and no end in sight [12 Apr 2006|08:28pm]
I do not know what I am going to say. I do not know the extent to what it will do. I do not even know anything and that's the problem. I don't know why she does what she does to me. I don't know why it affects me so much still. Wait, I do know the last one. I love her. Still. I do not fucking know why. She has ignored me for going on two months now. I keep giving and hoping and being around and get ignored and cold shouldered. She's been rude to me, to my face, and it's slayed me. But like an ever fucking stupid dog, I'm still loyal to it. I can't shake her. I try, or I don't, but I think I try because it pains me so much, to drop her. To leave memories and traces of her. But they haunt me. Day in and day out. I get depressed. So depressed. Lonely. Pained beyond belief because I cannot speak with her about any of this. I want to, but do not know if she will listen or care. I think that's the possibility that hurts the most. That she's moved on when I cannot. I did not want this to be permanent. I was too hopeful. I believed that by us breaking up, she would finally get as much space as she ever could want, settle down again and do what she needed to do and I could do some soul searching of my own. But she's just ignored me and it seems more and more like I dumped her instead of both of us making this decision. I just want her back. More than I've ever wanted anything in my life. No other girl compares with her. I cannot bring myself to be with others. I tried, but couldn't do it. The last time I was with a girl I did not love completely, I felt so revolted by her. By me. By what I was doing. I felt like throwing up. I do now too. Images of Sara float through my mind and replace my vision. It doesn't matter when or where. It happened during my tennis match today and I lost a few points. I want our closeness so badly. Our intimacy. Our knowledge of each other to be useful again. I know in my heart that the way she is is not the Sara I was in love with, but I cannot admit to myself that she is different and that I cannot have my Sara back again. It was too much of my life. I feel like dying when the thought approaches. Acknowledging that she won't be back will rip out my soul. I am already so close to an empty shell right now. That will just be the last blow. I find little joy in other things. When I am finally able to take my mind off her, I am alright. But those moments are so few and far between that they are only just barely sustaining me. I have drifted into several sets of severe mood swings and have broken out crying while driving. On those occasions I feel so completely devoid of meaning, purpose, or willingness to live, which is so bad because I am usually driving very fast at night when this happens. I do not know what has gotten me home safely. Thankfully with some help, I have been able to see some good in me, but it is very hard to believe it. I cannot believe that I am worth so much when I cannot be worth anything to the one person I gave my entirety to. If I was worth so much, why would she do this to me? Why would she show me how little she cares about me? If she loved me anymore, at all, would she not be nice to me? Would she not talk to me? I can't focus on anything else anymore. I tried to focus on tennis, but I can't. Even that means so little when I don't have her. I want her to understand this, but I don't know how to convey it. I don't know if she cares...I don't even know what's keeping me around when I feel so much like a pile of burned dust scattered in the wind. No, even that has a somewhat beautiful spirit to it, and I feel completely ugly and scathed. Like if raw tar was vaporized left only by a foul stench and bad memories. I just want people to know. I want her to know. I want my parents to know. So I can have support. Apparently no one knows any of this and assume that I am a happy, confident, and loved person. I can't remember when I ever was (that I wasn't with Sara or Rachel). Maybe if more people knew, I wouldn't seem so closed out from them. Maybe. I hope. I already feel lonely enough.

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